THE LETTER FOR A MAASAI

When I was beginning to feel my relationship with a Masai it wasn't so healthy at all and he hit my limit with constant problems at home, that all needed money, I decided to write him a letter. I wrote it the way I would write to an intelligent man (around 10 years) younger  than me. After completing the letter I suddenly became aware of the inevitable. That there is no point sending this to him, because he could never understand nor care, if he even could read it. Yes, reading my own letter finally made me understand, that a Masai just could not care less. At that moment I was out. The illusion fell into ashes and I was free of everything connected to him.

Here's my letter to a Masai who used me for money:

My dear Masai. I am a mature woman, so many things you find so important are irrelevant to us who have seen life and you can't possibly understand the way I see those stories you are telling me. I won't tolerate nonsense!

There are problems in every country far more serious than yours and there are sure big humanitarian problems also in Tanzania. One big problem is not just Masais but all the beachboys of Zanzibari and similar giggolos also in Arusha or elsewhere. For women from west, the men in african tourist areas are a real threat, because they introduce themselves in a dishonest way. For the Masais on the other hand the corrupt government is a problem because it's performing a genocide on the tribe. And what you probably don't see is that the most repressed are the Masai women because even your own chauvinistic culture is repressive to them. These are all connected problems in Tanzania. The one thing I know is that white people who are helping locals with money can not make these problems go away and also any christian missionaries cannot do that. Even by the missionary work many of the humanitarian problems are going to be  worse over the decades. Because of the missionaries, indigenous tribes are gradually loosing their traditional culture and self-respect starting with beliefs. Singing gospels you have lost your self respect and faith. Masai beachboys are the clean  evidence of your cultural decay.

The problem of the western way including the missionary work is belief that they know better what is right for other people in the world. But you can't blame them for your problems as long as you constantly beg for money everywhere and don't take any own  responsibility yourself. You just act like victims. It's also obvious that the government of Tanzania doesn't protect the culture of this tribe but helps Arab businessmen or others to repress it for economic greed. So Masais are changing their manners to save their skin. But with the way you do it, your culture completely looses respect of everyone in the world. The Masai who used to be proud people now lower themselves to beggars and victims that is painful to witness.

Funny thing is that your men who manipulate white women, actually don't understand women at all, because women are not equal to men in your chauvinistic Masai culture. This results in a disabled emotional intelligence of the Masai men, who are brought up worshipped by their mothers and privileged in several ways of free will, including polygamy. They can easily take advantage of the kindness of another human being not feeling sorry and justifying it with the bad attitude of the white world. The way children do, accuse othes of their own misbehavior. The morrans traditional mission and duty is to bring riches and wealth to their community. Masais have traditionally gained their riches (cattle) by raiding neighboring tribes. Today you obviously can't do it any more and instead of educating yourself for some honest work you have started raiding white people instead. Is that respectful or manly in any way?

Probably there has been sex tourism in Zanzibar initiating this idea. Masais seem to believe that they actually sell their love and women want to buy it but because of  your culture you are not able to understand and respect women. You are not honest and you seem to believe that women don't deserve any honesty.

If you want to sell your body for money it means you want to be a prostitute and you should have courage to say so: I sell sex for money. BUT YOU HAVE CHOSEN THE LIES. You have learned that by love bombing you will get woman to serve you and you are just offering your body and calling it by mistake "LOVE". How trivial is that... Sadly you still don't know how to even love own women because until today you see every woman as inferior. This is what I witnessed observing your attitudes and behavior in your local villages - where your beachboy act drops and reveals your true self - together with a white woman you act like some master in your village to show off and at times you forget yourself in front of white female, that she is also a woman herself, and you humiliate local women by demanding service, treating them in really bad and very toxic way. You don't know we can see from it that it will be also our future soon.

A lot from this chauvinistic attitude and discrimination of women is multiplied by the Christian missionary work because in a very chauvinistic culture both, men and women are spiritually disabled, brainwashed and manipulative with higher forces like religion. The emptiness in your soul draws you to church and you forget about your  authenticity. Deep inside of every human soul is seeking for love and many gigolos actually think they give and receive it. It seems they would like to experience the love but they fail in it daily. This sadly is not possible, by faking love bombing you won't get anywhere close to love, just close to the fraud. To love someone means to understand another human being that means you will have to be honestly interested in her, but you never seem to be interested in anything other than personal gain of profit,  wether it's the money or visa to Europe. For compassion (Christian or human) it is not essential to understand a person, and also for fraud (raid or love scam) there's no need to understand anything. So religion and crime actually match quite well. Many criminals also in western world turn to religion because when getting older they become afraid there may be consequences to what they have done, but their  undeveloped empty and poor souls do not make possible to regret and become honest so they try to fill the emptiness inside and cure the fear they feel by turning to some God to worship and beg for forgiveness. I will tell you a secret yet, there is no God, only your conscious and the soon you will face the consequences who you were in this life. Next time you will start all from the beginning to learn how to be a good soul. Criminals will be reborn as a dog or a pig in next life or just as a worm.

I respect my choice to allow one Masai to become my friend and I am grateful for the experience and lesson I got. It made me so much more rich today, even though your intentions with me were only yourself beneficial, in fact they where beneficial to me. The difference is that I was honest since beginning and you were never like that, you turned out to be just a coward. I wanted a local friend to spend time with during vacation, and that's what I also told you. I have never wanted to marry you or to take you to Europe. I even didn't like sex with you that you insisted on it and I was so tired of your love bombing.

A local companion would have been enough for me to spend time with and show me around, because after second time I knew, you can't make noir give the love, you just fuck soulless and of course I could not and I didn't enjoy it. I would have agreed to pay honest costs of your guidance fees and reasonable payment for your time. But it would be not enough for you. Honest work would not be enough for you.  To become your wallet was not anything I agreed to. My mistake was to tolerate your love bombing and for that mistake I paid already by facing serious manipulations. You started to play on my human compassion and got engaged in emotional blackmail. This, dear Masai, is already a serious crime. Are you aware of that? Or is it something not easy to understand in a country that is corrupted and coming from a tribe that has been repressed but is surviving because of a coldblooded attitude towards anything outside your own community?

Sometimes maybe the circumstances can make it hard for people - to be good and honest and humanly. I can understand it. But I will never accept it.

We are all taught to live by our tradition everywhere and if the conditions become contradictory to common sense or cruelty, then everybody's personal choices become their own responsibility and our future depends only on how much does a culture have good and honest people. The Masais choice of cheating and robbery has brought disrespect on the whole the tribe, local government is performing a genocide already and the western world is distancing from your problems, nobody will help you anymore although you need help from outside now more than ever in your cultural existence. Are we witnessing now the end of Masai tribe? I guess so.

Once I asked a guide are there any dangerous animals in his county. His answer was, that THE MOST DANGEROUS ANIMAL IS THE BEACHBOY BECAUSE HE IS FAST DESTROYING AN ENTIRE OLD AND ORIGINALLY VALUABLE AND RICH CULTURE.